freak ass.
freaking assholes.
i'm sorry but this will be another angry post.
rawrssss.

i don't understand how you guys still can be so happy when i'm unhappy.
while i always worry so much and can't start laughing suddenly when you guys are unhappy.
only when you guys start talking to me and start smiling and laughing,
then i will smile and laugh.
and i also don't understand why i'm always the only one waiting for you guys.
and you guys never wait for me.
don't wonder why i told you guys not to wait for me and i complain in my blog.
because i was angry at you guys just now.
of course i would say that.
and aidil's also waiting for me.
but you guys should seriously..
reflect.
i know you'll also be moody sometimes when i'm moody.
but most of the time you'll still be so happy.
laughing around at everybody else.
and i got angry about the plates stuff cos i only do that to people i don't like.
and you people doing that makes me feel that you guys don't like me.
i know,
everybody express in different ways.
but that's what i think and i don't like it.
i tried to forgive you guys when huilin said that she didn't see my plate.
but it's obviously fake.
cos peilin couldn't possibly have missed it as she went to buy the food with me.
next time i'll not run after you guys just to make you stay back with me already.
i'll just go without meal.
and i think i'll also slowly stop waiting for you already.
neither will i meet aidil.
slowly,
i'll be walking out of your lives.
but you guys won't even realise.
because i'm not important at all.
all those jurassic,popo,nu er..
all disappears into thin air.
we'll just be normal friends from today onwards.
i might think through later on,
and regret this decision.
but just let me be for the time being.
but i'm seriously angry this time.
i don't want to be angry,
but i am.
i'm sorry that i broke my promise and make you guys worry.
or perhaps,
not.
but i still broke my promise to stop being so emotional.
but i did keep my promise about not crying.
the definition of yong bie:forever goodbye.

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other lessons no comment,
cos it's as usual,
feel like sleeping.
only music lesson,
as you might have read from other two.c-ians' blogs,
edwin cried in music class today.
cos he had no groups/nobody wanted to take him in.
i actually wanted to take him in,
but our group is already full,
and i don't want to go against the system,
and nabil agreed to taking him in also.
haix.
then in the end mr rasull shouted at us and said something which made us all feel guilty.
or maybe just me.
heheh.
he showed us the actual groupings.
edwin's supposed to be in the same group as jing shi and ming xuan.
then they kept protesting lar.
like wth.
so incooperative leh.
i thought,
as the chairman i should say something since mr rasull is keeping quiet.
and i had a shock lor.
cos i started saying,
calmly,
"why are you guys being so incooperative?it's a class right?be united can anot?just taking somebody into your not full group.is there a problem?please lar,grow up can anot?stop being so childish and immature.thinking so immaturely,its hard to think that you're actually 2 years older than us."
the shocking thing is that,
the whole class kept quiet and actually listened to me talk.
wow.
that was an exhilarating experience.
phew.
but the last few words,
everybody became noisy again.
and i was like,
whoa.
that 'speech' was so mature.
hahar.
nice man.
everybody listening siak.
then in the end,
wilson got edwin back from the toilet.
and they were in their groups.
yes.
like finally.
but i forgot to praise afiq's group.
they actually asked for edwin to be in their group after my 'speech'.
i was damn happy lar.
total shock lors.
hahar.
they are nice people,i realised.
deciding on what to do.
sing?dance?beat?(!?!)
i don't know what the hell is beat.
but our group name is one oh seven.
our index numbers add together.
fun lar.
fi cannot stop laughing.
then he's like keep trying to stop himself from laughing by slapping his face lightly.
then like so cute lar,
his face keep *toin toin*.
lols.
after school,
nothing to say lers.
only that arai talked to me,
hur hur.
and pissed off by sec ones,empowering mar.
and talking with aidil's friends and aidil.
and taking bus home.
and kisses.
on cheek people.
C-H-E-E-K.
CHEEK.
lols.
cannot kiss my lips lar.
shy siak.
lols.
kae lar.s.
have to go liaos.
byeee.

i'm like that,
don't like it?
scram.
else,
try to bear with me.
i'm sorry if you don't like me,
the main point is that i still like you guys as much as before and nothing has changed.
only the status bahs.
sorry guys..