not your toy,which you can play around and just throw at a corner after you got tired.
not your dog,which you order and just obey you without any hitch.
you know your favourite song.
good love and protection.
you understand the lyrics.
but why can't you understand them and apply them.
if what you're doing to me is providing me with good love and protection,
then let me tell you,
this is not the way.
i told you i'm not angry.
and i'm seriously not angry.
i'm just irritated.
okay,
maybe it's just some stupid mood swings again and i'll be able to get over it in time.
i hope.
but after that major break up,
you've became colder to me.
and no girl would like that feeling if you ask them.
and i couldn't cry.
because i promised my friend that i would cry nomore.
and i've kept to that promise.
i promised her that i wouldn't hurt myself also.
so i don't know what to do to relax myself.
i listened to you.
you told me not to play the computer that much,
i listened to you.
you told me not to go home too late,
i listened to you.
WHAT IN THE BLOODY WORLD DO YOU STILL WANT?!
so you even listen to me when i asked?
NO.
did i ever mind?
NO.
so,WHAT DO YOU REALLY WANT.
i already tried giving up on azri.
so what do you want.
this is too much for me alrights?
there is no way for me to relax already.
you're on my mind every minute.
i told you that time,
don't make you love you until the rest of the world is nothing then you don't love me.
and you said you won't.
i know you said that you still love me.
but i don't feel loved at all.
i hate your replies.
you dislike me making my friends my first priority.
but you make soccer and friends your priority also.
and i've never commented about that because i also don't like you saying about my life.
okay,
it's your life,
but.
arg.
whatever.
about your effing life.
you said you dislike my friends.
and you're uneasy around them.
have i ever complained about having your friends around?
like seriously,
what else do you want from me?
JUST SAY WHENEVER YOU WANT TO BREAK UP WITH ME.
I'VE HAD ENOUGH.
I DON'T WANT TO BREAK WITH YOU AGAIN BECAUSE I'LL STILL SOFTEN WHEN YOU SWEET TALK ME.
AND IT'LL JUST WASTE TIME.
SO I'LL JUST WAIT FOR YOU TO TELL ME.
AND MEANWHILE,
I'LL JUST GO BACK TO FANTASIZING ABOUT MY CRUSH.
this is MY life.
so BUG OFF and LEAVE ME ALONE.
and don't be afraid to hurt me when you want to breakup.
i'm not as weak as you think but i'm not as strong as you think either.
---<3---
sorry mummy and my 3 nu er..
i became very sad because of aidil during I and E workshop.
i'm sorry..


all the above only applies if you really don't love me anymore..
i'm sorry honey..
that's the best way to work between us.