i'm quite tired of the computer nowadays.
so i might be updating less.
but it's surely a good news to my parents that is.
they just couldn't wait till i get tired of the computer so that the bills would finally decrease.
BUT.
it's quite impossible because if i use the computer less,
i'll sleep more.
and i can't sleep without my beloved air con.
and air con costs more.
heheh.
so it's about the same.
lols.
poor poor parents.
and i don't even see my mummy nowadays.
she sent me a message at school yesterday saying that we've not seen each other for almost weeks already nad that she misses me.
haix..
sorry mummy.
it's not my fault that i have to go school that early and go home earlier than you and sleep before you come home.
---<3---
yesterday was alright.
only it was a bit awkward to meet aidil when we just quarrelled the day before.
but he still acts as if nothing happened.
he read my blog.
those things about THAT SOMEBODY.
and he still acts as if nothing happened.
and me thinking about that just makes me feel more guilty.
and he was extra gentle to me yesterday.
usually he will pinch my face very hard and make me feel pain on my cheek until the end of recess.
yes.
it's that painful.
but he touched my face so gently yesterday..
i almost cried.
i feel unfair that he has to stand all these NONSENSE from ME.
and i can't stand abit of his nonsense.
but if he's two timing me then it's too much.
but i think no.
i believe that he's not two timing me..
i wish i could hug him and say sorry to him face to face,
sincerely for the first time.
---<3---
after school have to go 'supervise' secondary 4 normal technical students for oral.
i have to run around like a mad woman for the first 30 minutes of my duty.
until i can settle down and sit in the form class and disturb people.
after that mabel has to go home and i took over her for her duty.
and that stupid zulfakar just couldn't stop winking at me.
i totally feel like vomitting.
*vomitting sounds*
you can ask wanxin if you don't believe.
he's blinking like such an idiot.
and i ignore him.
bleahx.
and sadly he's one of the last few people i have to supervise.
but the good thing is i'm not the one to supervise him.
wilson's the one.
but wilson is sitting beside me so it's almost the same.
and after they finish reading but the time is not up yet,
that irritating guy said:eh you haven't give me your number leh.
and i was totally SHIT.
until fah saved me by coming into the class and i just talked to her and ignored the guy.
arg.
HE KNOWS THAT I'M AIDIL'S STEAD AND HE STILL CAN'T STOP DOING THIS!
FUCK HIM.
and before the whole thing started and we're in the canteen,
i walked past their table,one of them talked to me saying jiawei's attracting my attention.
fuck them all.
piss off man.
i know him,
he has the total right to attract my attention and to add on,
HE'S MY GOD BRO.
and i don't even know you guys and you guys talk to me and even badmouth about my kor to me.
and from my point of view,
you are the ones who tries to attract my attention.
buzz off ogres.
yes.
you people are that ugly that i describe you as ogres.
OGRES.
bleah.
i'm just so happy knowing that you'll be gone and away next year.
only i still have to stand the sight of you ogres for another 7 months.
haix.
stop ruining my life.
hahas.
i really hope jiali and fah's intuition is true.
about that fat ass lars.
never mind.
for the time being i'll just live with being hidden from the truth.
yeap.
the truth might be hurting to god-knows-who.
my life's really not at the top of the roller coaster these few days.
yucks.
oh.whatever.
i'm just talking crap.
---<3---
went to JPCC to meet lynn yesterday.
i want to go to the new yamaha to check out how is it.
it was okay.
but it seem smaller than the one at JP.
but i saw one of the guitar.
it was freaking nice can?
and it's green!
muahaha.
it costs around 493 bucks bah.
couldn't remember.
took the form for jiali and huilin.
then went to JP to walk around.
then walked home.
saw jiali and family when walk past JPCC.
cos yesterday is xiao fei's birthday then they went to eat sakae sushi marh.
then walked home lor.
reached home about 10pm like that.
don't want to go home too late because don't want aidil to worry..
heheh.
i guai nerhs.
he watching soccer at stadium..
don't know what time he reach home.
i only know he sleep at 11.38pm like that.
he messaged me marhs.
i stayed up today to wait for mum to come home.
got some nagging about washing my shoes and socks.
blah blah blah.
then we talked awhile then i tell her that i got the guitar course form already.
then tell her about the costs all that.
then she ask me when i go for the lesson.
then i say i don't know.
see first lar.
but then is confirm got go correct lers.
lynn say she want to sell me her guitar.
hahar.
see first nahs.
see good anot ders.
---<3---
today actually happy happy because going to lakeside park there to cycle.
but then cancel because jiali cannot go.
everytime like that der.
irritating sia.
susie still want to jio me out.
going out with her at around 6pm like that.
tired sey.
listening to songs and surfing net now.
i think my show download finish lers.
i now go watch.
then watch finish lers then go prepare to go out.
update again later.
till then toodles!


never mean to hurt you..
and i don't want you to be happy because i hurt you.
that just made me scared..
your gentle touch,
touched me.
stop talking about that somebody..
i'll stop that about him..
i'm sorry dearie..
so sorry..