i know somebody likes me now.
but i knew this long ago.
so it doesn't make a difference.
i have a new sms partner,
he ask me questions that signals something,
but i'm not sure.
so it doesn't make a difference either.
i lost 2 sms partner.
they got tired of me i got tired of them,
they're not important to me so it doesn't matter either.
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i asked somebody what does it feels like to be in love.
he didn't manage to give me an answer.
because he don't know whether he had been in love before.
so what's love?
i found myself pathetic.
after all these relationships,
searching for what typical girls are searching for,
LOVE.
without knowing what is it after hurting yourself.
would i know the meaning of love after checking it in the dictionary?
i never wanted to because i find no meaning in it.
it's either you feel it or not,you know it or not.
is love the chemistry between you and your boyfriend?
or is it just a word that is used to trick everybody?
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what is love exactly?
why is it that people are trying so hard to find it?
and always make it sound so wonderful.
is it really that wonderful?
if it is,have i really ever been in love?
why do people always say that they have found their one and only love,
and then break up with them a week after?
is love this way?
then why can't love last?
why does it have to pain if people always describe it as wonderful?
does the pain feel good?
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the breeze against my dark brown skin.
the tears rolling down my cheek,
blending in with the salty rain.