Har.
Angelin,you still haven't found the true meaning to life have you?
The priorities you set,bullshit eh?

So on the 12th,after rushing to the bustop and missing 2 buses which leads us to CJGLS building,
LOVE and i decided to cab there.
Waited for a little while and the person told me that i can get my phone on 15th.
Happiness lar please((:

Then went to eat at IMM and began sitting around at Adidas finding my perfect sporties.
Damnit.
The only one i like was not suitable for netball.
ARG.
So we walked around a little while more and went home.

On the 13th,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MUMMY!
&
HAPPY FIRST YEAR TO PEI AND CHINHOW!
Already celebrated her birthday a sunday before,
so jie jie and i only went to eat mac breakfast with mummy in the morning.
Tired,then LOVE came.
With her mars bars and my cornflakes,
we set off to make mummy's present.
With one less mars bar(stupid daddy came and stole it away).
Made 40 for mummy and had the rest for LOVE and myself.
Though jiejie and daddy ate away ours like rats and only left a few for me.

It's okay,we can always make it again.

14th,went searching for JIA's present,
and to JP to eat.
Bought her a flower bookmark,
we thought she'd like sunshine.((:
Then when we were on our way to our queue,
saw the long queue and LOVE saw mummy(thank gawd!)
So we fake-talked to mummy and joined in the queue at her side.
Hurhur.
Spoke.
Was happy that mummy can actually speak to LOVE like she don't know anything about us at all.

15th,
HAPPY 6th ANNIVERSARY TO LOVE AND I!

Woke up at 8am,prepared and waited for LOVE to come.
Then headed to JIA's house to pass her her stuff.
Stupid me,forgot to bring her sleeping bag.
Aw well,she doesn't need it in hong kong.
Then we went to have breakfast/lunch at the library,
prata, cos LOVE can't take the hunger pangs and stomach grumbles.
Then off we went to PEI's house.
She still sleeping,played with Shiro while trying to wake her up.
Hahar,paiseh,woke you up early in the morning.
Talked very long,
then headed to Sentosa with LOVE.
Played very long,
soccer most of the time and then playing with sand.
Started raining,then walked to the toilet in the rain.
Cold.
Batheeeeee,then went to vivo to walkwalk.

Then we went to Marina in search of some place nice to satisfy our hunger pangs.
Found Han's and ate there.
It's nice larh!
I ate Linguine Alfredo with ham and LOVE ate spaghetti with sausage.
Photos might be coming up soon enough.
But not today.
Went to walk around and saw Val and YS when we were going to citylink.
Played ball all the while with LOVE.
Thank you BABY,
so tired ler still pei me play(:
On the train also,she very tired,
wanted to sleep,but she still stayed up to take pictures with me.
Hahar((:
IlOVEYOU :D

Sent me home when she's still so tired.
Slept on my bed awhile while i disturbed her.
Then she cabbed home.

16th December,
LOVE came to my house.
Watched tv and she slept.
While i played wedding dash,
got abit pekcek to the end cos i was thinking about what LOVE told me.
Went to watch star awards with LOVE,
then prepared and did everything and sent her to the busstop.
She saw Aidil's friend but i didn't see,
didn't give a damn either.
Made here miss a bus and almost miss the second one again.
Hahar.
Had hell lots of fun today(:
Kept kachiaow-ing LOVE.
Had fun(:

Today,
HAPPY 7TH ANNIVERSARY TO HUILIN AND JIEYONG!

Last long and stay sweet.


Nothing much to say also.
But i have a little bit of self explanation to do,
whether or not you'll bother to care or whether you want to ignore.

First of all,
if you're talk about your breakup with PZ,
is because of me liking him,
i'm sorry but i have some objections.
That period that you were with him,
i haven't got to like him yet.
I was just very close with him,
and i told you whatever i did with him because i thought you would understand my position as a middle person between you and him and that i thought that you had absolute right to know.
Hiding would just seem like i'm breaking you both up.
And turns out,it's inevitable for a middle person to be turned into a cheap third party.
I'm sorry on that part.
I was slightly insensitive,
but you could have told me,i would've kept my distance.

Secondly,the present.
I already told her that the present was shared.
She thought that it was YL and my present at first,yes.
Because i didn't tell her,yes.
Telling her now that she's found out herself is too late,yes.
But i'm trying to tell you,i forgot.
Until JY told her and she told me.
Because when i told you guys about the money stuff via sms,
i got no reply.
So i didn't say anything when i passed her the gift,
i thought it was right of me not to say anything about the present,
but i was wrong.
That,i'm sorry as well.

But i don't get it,
why would you say that i backstabbed you?
I'm sorry if any misunderstanding was caused but,
what's with the serious backstabbing stuff?
I just felt that,you've changed,
and i thought that,it's just me thinking too much,
so,i didn't want to tell you much and we don't interact much either.
Now that we've got our own partners.

Talk to you for only awhile and whom for more than an hour?
I'm sorry hon,that part,i don't get who you're talking about.
If it's Yeeling,please try to understand,
because she is obviously my partner.
And if you're talking about PEI,
then it's because we just can talk better.
I won't hide,
it might be because i'm prejudiced against you already,
because of your change of attitude.
OR,because of my own mindset.
I'm not saying anybody's at fault now,
i'm not placing a judgement,
i'm allowing space for general jury and answers.
Whichever might be more suitable.

But i am sad,
upset,disappointed.
That i'm being such a lousy friend.
Not only in your eyes,
in your words,
but i'm feeling lousy.
I'm feeling so,inferior.

I appreciate it that you always try to protect me last time,
that you always sided me,
that you always tried to help me.
I appreciate it that you covered my ass on the 29th when Yeeling carried me,
when you held my shoes on that same day,
when you showed care for me.

I apologize for making you cry on that day to JIA,
because i didn't explain things to you well.
I'm sorry for the past minderstandings and current misunderstandings as well if any.

I would like to emphasize on the fact that,
i still treasure this relationship,
this special bond that we have,
this strong rapport that we've built over the past years.
And that i haven't forgotten everything that you've done for me.
I also want you to remember that,
you aren't the only one who sacrificed and helped and who was sad.
I'm sure you know how much you have received and how much you've done unintentionally so you said.

And i hope this piece of little explanations helped dissolve part of the misunderstanding and doesn't count as philosophy.

And ILOVEEVERYBODY who had done things for me and had helped me.
Not hanging 'thank you' at my mouth every moment doesn't mean i don't see what you've done for me.


Understand mistletoes,
ACZL.

Are not the only reasons for you to kiss during christmas.